I keep having these dreams... Not every night, but at least every other. They started maybe... week or two ago? I'm not too sure. I've had similar themes before, but not as often.
Well, I keep seeing my ex. Not only him, but also his brother. Sometimes others from my past that I left behind when I moved back to Estonia. But mostly just those two. And I have no idea why. I thought I'd said goodbye, that I'd finished that chapter. It's becoming more and more clear now that apparently I haven't. And I have no idea what I should do about it.
The dreams aren't bad most of the times. They're either... neutral or, honestly, even happy. We get back together. Or we are friendly again. Or we even talk to each other again. I don't know. I tend to have quite surreal dreams, so they aren't always that easy to remember or interpret. But the underlying tone is pretty clear most of the time. For some reason I am still not done with him/them...
Perhaps spending so much time on my own, without anything to do for the moment, is slowly making me go insane? Wouldn't be the first time, honestly.
I wouldn't even mind the dreams so much, if I didn't know that they do have a meaning and if they didn't make my feel so darn melancholic when I wake up. I hate dwelling on the past, I try to live as much in today as possible. Yet still something keeps dragging me back. Please make it stop...
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